Tuesday, March 9, 2010

# friendship # nerves

Tackle It Tuesday

Wow, blogger is giving me fits today. I don't know what the story is with that, but I do hope it behaves long enough for me to get this post written and posted.

It's Tuesday and that means I have to tackle something. Today it won't be housework or bill paying or even finishing up my Crop Chocolate assignment. Today, it's nerves.

Sometime later today, I'm meeting up with my old high school boyfriend (Hi, Russ! (He's a new reader.)) for dinner and conversation. It's not a date, just two old people who haven't seen each other in a long time catching up and "reliving" old times. It's going to be so nice to get out of the house and have actual adult conversation. The thing is, I'm super nervous. Like butterflies doing the chacha in my stomach nervous. Why? Well, it goes back to that whole thing of being rejected (this guy dumped me not once, but twice!) and well, let's face it, I don't look like I did in high school. I know, I know...nobody does. He doesn't and I certainly don't. The thing is that I've put on a ton of weight since high school and well, this guy was like my first love. You never forget your first love, right? Imagine meeting up with him 16 years (yes, I'm that old) after the last time he saw you. Imagine that the last time he saw you was when he very dramatically broke your young teenage heart. Now, I bet you understand my nervousness.

But, I'm going to be brave. I'm going to ignore those nerves and I'm going to drive into Grand Ledge/Lansing and meet up with him. It's not as if he's going to break my grown up heart, right? Right. Ok, glad we got that settled. Now that it is, I'm off to work on a final Crop Chocolate project while I ponder what to wear. Ugh, I am such a girl!



Upstatemamma said...

Oh I am nervous for you!! I can only imagine.

Janice (5 Minutes for Mom) said...

HUGS!!!! You will do great! You are beautiful and happy and your life turned out SO well because you were free of him! ;)

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